Life Cycles and The Flower of Life

The Goddess Diaries: April 11, 2026

All the cycles of Life….

I’m home from a procedure at the hospital and I wish I could say I had amazing visions during anesthesia but I took great comfort in noticing that the privacy curtain in my room had a design very closely representing the Flower of Life. As I laid in the bed getting all hooked up to All.The.Things and tubes and answered all the questions by the nurse, I looked at that curtain and marveled at the significance of it being there….for me! How many other people looked at that same curtain and recognized it? It made me aware of the presence of Osiris and Isis, their journey of healing and remembering, of death and rebirth, or the cycles of Life and the way everything is connected…the way we are all connected to each other and to every thing. The Flower of Life symbol is mysteriously on the columns at the Osirion at the Temple of Seti I at Abydos and it was so very special to see that in my room as this is also a very significant site to me in Egypt.

This symbol is associated with the cycle of creation and the interconnectedness of all life and these are concepts I’ve been not only contemplating but also experiencing a lot lately by listening to the gods and goddesses and to the nature they represent. Recently I've had some interesting dreams that felt lucid and healing: dreams of being in meditation while levitating over a field of flowers and feeling my being glowing and connected with all the flowers and grasses around me; dreams of lying on the ground to feel the Earth, her warmth, her smell, her heartbeat with mine and how comforting that was to feel and remember. The support we can all receive from nature and the natural world around us is astounding if we look at it for reassurance or direction and if we don’t, it seems to find us somehow in our dreams.

Let’s look at mine…

For me, last year was the Year of the Snake and I certainly had a LOT of shedding to do, a LOT of growth happened within the letting go, and it was a sacred time inside the cave to do all the shedding and processing. Last year was also a 9 for me, which is completion and ending of cycles. I do get sad sometimes that the cycle of leading trips to Egypt is over but I have so many wonderful memories and had the opportunity for some incredible adventures and magical experiences….I don’t ever define my Egypt time by the trials of that final trip. Yes it was hard, excruciating, and even devastating but it was also something that I knew in my bones was going to be ok somehow…something that was in my stars and a direction of my future…it was something I was told by my guides but not given details on and so I gave into trust.

All the endings…

Last year, before going to Egypt in February (2025), we sold our farm. I literally signed the sale papers the day before my flight. It felt like THE END and was so heartbreaking. I lost a dream of living forever in the country surrounded by open sky and quiet and our horses. That was a HUGE letting go and during that February visit to the Sphinx, I felt so ‘homeless’ and didn’t know where I ‘fit’ in the world anymore so I asked him “Where do I belong?” He said to me, “Wherever you are, there you belong.” Wow! I wrote that in my new journal and have held onto those words like a touchstone many times.

Also last year, due to multiple reasons driven by the realities of Life, we discontinued the divorce process and bought a house together that could be a family house. While living with my sister, I was so grateful to her for opening a room for me to live in for two years and now without a home of my own, I worried about being able to take care of any of our kids or other family who may need help and a place to stay. With all of my health issues and need for daily care, I then moved in with my husband after a separation of 10 years and soon after, my daughter and granddaughter came to live with us. None of them realize how much my love for them saved me and healed me.

Because of my health issues, I had to quit my new job, which was the most money I had ever made on my own ….even though it wasn’t a LOT, it was enough for me to pay off my bills and be able to buy new much-needed tires for my car without worry. I’m definitely struggling a bit but grateful for what I have and always open to direction and opportunities the Universe brings my way (more on that later!)

Due to my illness and the inability to be heard and respected, I would be remiss if I didn’t address the fact that my work in the travel industry to Egypt with my business also came to an end, both in a personally hurtful way and professionally illegal way. That has also been part of the healing process and letting go, knowing that for whatever reasons of gifts that were to come, this had to happen. I so appreciate the heads up I received from the Universe to prepare me a little bit, and I’m glad that I wasn’t given details. Knowing I had the support of the stars above, the changing of the year, and the opportunity to begin again has been a light outside that cave I was in for a while. I still retreat there from time to time to regroup, find stillness and clarity. It’s a safe place to go walk the path of the blind oracle and trust. There were blind harpists in Ancient Egypt, you know, and I’m a harpist so….there you go.

Now what….

Now, it’s the Year of the Horse … a time for community and family, a time to move forward and trust even more your instincts, and lean into intuition for comfort and reassurance. My number for this year is a 1, which is all about beginnings and … that message from the Sphinx: “LEADERSHIP” (which I’m still trying to embody and don’t know if I’m succeeding very well sometimes), starting again with my family, finding a new job, and reassessing how my spiritual work in the world is going to look. I’m working on building community through my Iseum and Egyptian Mystery School, repackaging past classes I’ve taught, and feeling inspired to put together some new ones.

Yes, sometimes I feel all over the place but I keep going back to stillness, standing in the sunshine, listening to the wind and following the winding trails of connection within the Flower of Life to remember that it may look like paths going everywhere, but that they do indeed connect and make something beautiful, meaningful and healing. I’m reminded that everything is connected….that WE are all connected….and how sacred and precious and magical that is.

I’m suddenly shown the significance of my message from the wind, about bringing back The Goddess Diaries while being with the horses and how that adds another layer of magic and comfort and confidence to trust….to go where the wind and the horse will take me, where it will lead, and how my role in leadership will evolve. It’s all coming together, slowly but surely and it feels grand.

Wait….there’s more!

As I’m writing this diary, my dear friend Curtis Ryan Woodside called me to share a dream he had in which Isis and Nephthys appeared to him in a dream as bright stars outlining their bodies. We talked for two hours discussing all the ways in which our dreams talk to us, all the ways in which the Universe leads us, all the ways we’re given signs to help us navigate our path in life, and the significance of paying attention to your feelings. We talked about karma and past lives and our connections to each other, and how sometimes we forget we’re spiritual beings living a human existence. We talked about studies that show how when giraffes eat the leaves on one tree how that tree will send out a signal to the other trees which then produce something to make their leaves taste bitter, deterring the giraffes and saving themselves from being eaten. We talked about his upcoming trip to Egypt and Greece and my recent connection with the oracles and sibyls of the Oracle Temple of Dodona in Greece, who were known for being able to communicate with nature and receive messages from the sacred oak tree and by listening to the wind. We talked about how I’m so drawn to painting with water colors and how I’m seeing other spiritual leaders and creatives also delving into water colors…specifically!

Everything. Is. Connected.

When I told him about seeing the Flower of Life on the hospital curtain and how comforting that was because of it’s meaning, we both thought how significant that it was that he dreamed of Isis last night and had to call me to tell me and how I saw that symbol of Isis in the hospital just yesterday and how yes….everything is connected in a magical and unexplainable way.

Life is amazing, isn’t it? I’ve been through so much this past year and I often wonder how I’m still standing! As much as I sometimes struggle, it’s the reminders and experiences like these that fill me with wonder and keep me eager to stay open to receive all the gifts the Universe has lined up for me.

~ Auset